Passing Time

Time seems to be passing so quickly lately. Perhaps it's because I am not working and have no schedule whatsoever. Every now and then the fact I left my job stresses me out, but looking back over the last several months since I left the timing couldn't have been better. So much has happened - first I was able to take care of  Abby - a recent amputee, while Laura and Pat went on vacation. Having just lost her leg it would have been an awful time for her to be in a kennel. Then Uncle Rocky fell more seriously ill - not working allowed me to make several trips to CT to see him including one very last minute trip when we thought it was time to say goodbye. Then came Liam's birth followed all too soon by Uncle Rocky's passing. I was able to go to CT and spend some very important time with the family and it allowed to be bond with Grace in a way we never had before. That time changed everything about our relationship and I am so so thankful for that. Next came hurricane Sandy.  Not working allowed me to volunteer and help people who lost so much to the storm. What a humbling experience that was. Then came 12.14.12 - regardless if whether or not I had been working that day would have gone the same - nothing would have kept me from jumping in the car and heading to CT and spending that afternoon and evening with the kids. The drive seemed endless that day as I laid on my horn to get anyone in front of me out of the way. I knew PJ was ok but I just couldn't get there fast enough. January was thankfully uneventful. February allowed me to go and help Laura while Pat was out of town and then of course came one of the worst Colitis attacks ever. It's been nice to be home but boredom is setting in so hopefully tomorrow will bring the job offer I have been waiting for. This time has done alot for me in other ways as well. I was able to give away a baby item. I still have all of Ruth's belongings tucked within her moses basket just waiting for a baby. I don't think that baby is ever coming to this house and I was able to pass along something to Liam.It didn't hurt, it felt good. My heart is healing. It may never be whole again as Ruth has a piece with her in Heaven but it IS healing. It always works out, I need to remember that fact on my worst days.