I will always remember

This time four years ago you were still with me but little did I know we had only a few minutes more.I remember that night so vividly, as if it were today. I remember that last movement - if only I had known. If only I knew I was losing you I would have said  so many things - I would have said goodbye. I still remember your face. I still remember your tiny fingers and toes. I remember every detail of your perfect little body. I still remember the moment I realized you were gone,stolen from me. I still remember all of it. Somedays I don't want to remember because it brings a pain to my heart so deep I become afraid I will fall back down again. I hate it. I hate that remembering you means remembering you are gone.Time has brought some peace but at a moments notice all that peacefulness can be lost and the anguish consumes me all over again. Today is your birthday once again.Today is your day and I will always remember. Happy Birthday to Heaven's sweetest little angel, my little angel. Happy Birthday to my Ruth