Here we are - it's your birthday once again. Today marks 5 years since you were born & grew your angel wings. I slept through the night last night and woke up feeling very guilty. Every year on the night of your birthday I stay up and make sure I see the clock hit the moment you were born. This year tho, I slept.and when I woke up I felt guilty that I missed that moment. Then this afternnon I fell into a puddle of sobs and tears in my car.I didn't need to see the clock to have my heart feel that pain all over again. It doesn't matter the date or time the time sometimes it just comes in a wave so strong it takes me out at the knees. It was that uncontrollable sob that comes out no matter how hard you try to hold it in. It was an intense, hard cry. And then it was over. Just like 5 years ago. I thought about your Daddy today and wondered if he too went out and bought you balloons and sent your gifts up to the sky. He is the other half of you and I hope you watch over him too.
You were so wanted. You are so missed. You are so loved Birthday girl.
