Saying Goodbye

Uncle Rocky passed away on 9.22.12 We knew this was coming but that doesn't make it any easier. Rocky was a special man with a kind heart and a warm smile and it is just so sad knowing we will never see his smile again. He is at peace and some comfort comes from knowing his illness is no more but we will miss him. I know you're up with with your Uncle Rocky,Ruth, and I know he's making you laugh saying things like "hiccumeups"   and bouncing you on his knee. His services are tomorrow (Wednesday and Thursday) and I am nervous. I cry - I can't help it and I know that my tears are not always well received, even frowned upon but I loved this man and I am sad!  Perhaps a little rescue remedy is in order. I am simply not good at saying goodbye - I doubt anyone is

New Cousin

Ruth you have a new little cousin and he is just the cutest sweetest little guy! I am so excited that he is here! I met him last week and also got to spend a day alone with Grace for the first time. What a sweet girl she has become, a handful at times, but she made me smile all day long.  I can't wait to see my nieces and nephews again and take pictures of the perfection that is Ruth's new cousin,Liam!! Welcome to the world and to our family little Liam!

Hello Goodbye

Over the next two weeks I will be saying goodbye to my dear sweet Uncle Rocky and hello to my new nephew. Such a range of emotions. Uncle Rocky has been sick since last fall, the cancer has now spread everywhere and there is nothing more that can be done. I was there with him in the hospital two weeks when they thought his time was up - and so did he. 11 hours I was there with him waking up every now and then telling  us "I'm going now, I'm sorry, I gotta go now" It was gut wrenching. But I am glad I was there. Somehow he made it through  that time and we had hope there was more time, maybe a few months? No. Tuesday they doctor said two weeks at most. My Uncle Rocky has always been special to me and my heart is hurting so much for him right now. At my wedding last year before he left he told me how happy he was for me and that I always had a special place in his heart. I was so touched by his words, little did I know it was the last special moment we would share. While we are struggling with this news there is good news too. A new baby! How ironic that as we  prepare to say goodbye to one member of our family we are welcoming another. Since the doctor said we have two weeks or less I feel this count down clock in my head and it's making me sick - very literally. I am sad. I am happy. I am sick. Ugh.  It's all just too much.