Hello Goodbye

Over the next two weeks I will be saying goodbye to my dear sweet Uncle Rocky and hello to my new nephew. Such a range of emotions. Uncle Rocky has been sick since last fall, the cancer has now spread everywhere and there is nothing more that can be done. I was there with him in the hospital two weeks when they thought his time was up - and so did he. 11 hours I was there with him waking up every now and then telling  us "I'm going now, I'm sorry, I gotta go now" It was gut wrenching. But I am glad I was there. Somehow he made it through  that time and we had hope there was more time, maybe a few months? No. Tuesday they doctor said two weeks at most. My Uncle Rocky has always been special to me and my heart is hurting so much for him right now. At my wedding last year before he left he told me how happy he was for me and that I always had a special place in his heart. I was so touched by his words, little did I know it was the last special moment we would share. While we are struggling with this news there is good news too. A new baby! How ironic that as we  prepare to say goodbye to one member of our family we are welcoming another. Since the doctor said we have two weeks or less I feel this count down clock in my head and it's making me sick - very literally. I am sad. I am happy. I am sick. Ugh.  It's all just too much.