Sometimes when I'm in the area I drive around all the places I wanted to go with you.The school I thought you'd attend, the library where I wanted to take you to story hour, things like that and I realized this last time that I am ok most of the time but I go there, to Rahway it hurts. It hurts so incredibly bad. Everything was so sudden so unexpected-perhaps I should have been more realistic but I was caught off guard for it all. Moving forward,moving on? Moving on doesn't mean forgetting. I miss you baby girl, and that life that was supposed to have been. I am content now though. No lonely hour which I have had my whole life. I love it here, so so glad I moved. I could not have done it back when your daddy said I should I needed to be in the only place I saw as home here in New Jersey but I have a new place now with a man who loves me without limit,without conditions. Life is good again, if only you were here then it would be perfect!!!! Love you Ruthie girl!