Tuesday Blues

Blue!That's how I am feeling. I know it's me, it's always been. I get into these modes where I believe it's not but then some stupid slip of the tongue and I am reminded that yes, all those things I thought really ARE true. Turth hurts. I don't know how to be someone else, I don't know how to be different. Can't I just "google it"? That would be nice huh? Then there's this whole what I am convinced is PTSD. Can't get it ot of my head once it gets there. Had nightmares last night. One tiny little sentence and I am set back 18 months. Maybe that's why I am blue, because I had such a horrible nights sleep-oh that and another stupid slip of the tongue.Or maybe I am blue just because it's Tuesday! This has nothing to do with Ruth-I probably should create a blog seperate from here for my "life" stuff but I needed a forum to vent tonight so here I am. I can't start another blog now. Besides, this is just for me anyway does it really matter how it started? Does it really have to be a theme ? Whatever I need to go walk the dogs, maybe some crisp fall salt water air will do the trick...