Now I lay me down to sleep

Now I lay me down to sleep is an organization of volunteer photographers who go into hospitals/medical facilities to photograph infants who have passed away or may pass soon. The idea is to create lasting memories for parents who otherwise would not have beautiful images of their precious little ones. While I had never heard of NILMDTS when Ruth was born once I heard of them I often wondered why the hospital did not tell me about them. Why were the fuzzy hospital images taken by my nurse all I got? Well tonight in doing some research for an upcoming infant photo session I read that NILMDTS has age guidelines. 25 weeks and older.Upon reading this I found myself in a flood of tears. Not only was my baby cheated out of a chance at life because she wasn't 6 days older but I was cheated out of having images of her perfect little self  because she didn't meet the "guidelines". Now I realize this is a guideline not a steadfast rule but from what I understand for younger babies it is left up to medical personnel to determine if photos would be possible.one more way that the hospital failed us. They took photos that don't adequately depict how perfect Ruth was. There are no photos of us together, no pictures of those strong shoulders or tiny toes.how I wish I had those,but I wish even more I had my baby Ruth. Missing you angel girl..as always