Milton Lake

I took the dogs to Milton Lake yesterday. It's always been a favorite spot for them. They run and chase then take a cool swim in the little river there. We hadn't been in a long time since we don't live nearby anymore. The day Ruth died Willie and I went there. I remember standing by the water and him telling me all the plans he had for her. All the things he wanted to do. He cried with me by the river and then one year later we went to there to release her birthday balloons. It's hard to digest all that happend in that year. And now, here we are almost another year gone by and more major changes. I am in a good place but there is still a hurt that won't go away. I wasn't ready to say goodbye,to either of them. Life is just so unpredictable. I love everything about my life right now but I am still saddend by the losses. I hope your Daddy is happy too, Ruth. He may no longer wish to talk to me but I send him positive thoughts anyway,afterall,he gave me you. He also gave me years of goodness before you too. Sorry is never enough but it's all I've got.