October 15th

October 15th. National Pregnancy and Infant loss remembrance day. Statistics show 1  in 4 women have suffered from pregnancy or infant loss. I'm part of that statistic. WE are part of that and today as I realized the date  one of the waves came crashing in hard. No warning. Just took over me and here I sit and sob. Oh baby girl, I wanted  you so badly. Just a few moments. If I just had a few moments to hold you while you were still here. While  you could feel my arms holding you. While you could hear me tell how much I love you. How much I'd miss you and how sorry I am for anything I did that caused this. I'll honor you today and love  and miss you every day my sweet Baby Ruth.