In five hours it will officially be your 6th birthday. I can't even wrap my mind around the fact that it's been six years. Six years ago at this hour your heart still beat within me. Even though all these years have passed your presence is still felt. My love for you you goes on. My heartache goes on.
I find that I often feel guilty for happiness I do have and I have so much to be happy about. I am living with more happiness than I ever thought I would , but there is always this sadness that haunts me. The sadness that you didn't get to grow up. Sadness that I never got the chance to know more than your heartbeat. Sadness that your daddy only felt you after you were gone. Sadness that we didn't give you a more proper goodbye. Regret is an awful thing. I regret so much but you my tiny angel girl ,will never ever be a regret no matter how painful this has all been I would live those days all over again just to hear your heart,to feel your kicks. wishing you a beautiful birthday in heaven. Dance among the clouds little one. And thank you for the signs. The moon over the ocean was so perfect. Just like you. Happy Birthday my sweet baby girl.
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